After 6.5 years trying, miscarriages and a lot of praying I was going to be a mom of a little princess. I remember going to my first OBGYN appointment and explained that I had preeclampsia with my son 8 years ago. Her answer was "It's been a long time and now you are older, the chances are less than 30% it repeats."

I had a great pregnancy no morning sickness, I was able to work; everything was going great. Until one day I have started to feel out of breath, then another day I started having some weird headaches and feeling like someone was stabbing my eyes. Well I called my OBGYN and she told me was the flu. I went to my PCP and told her and she did the flu test and it was negative; I had some neck pain too which she told me was muscular. She told me you need to go to your OBGYN she is the right person to treat you.

Well I tried and they didn't want to see me, I did the flu test 3 different days and was negative all the time. I went to the clinic and made clear I wasn't leaving til someone see me. My OBGYN decided to see me. I told her my symptoms which included throwing up and I was 28 weeks already. She sent me to Labor and Delivery to do more blood work (flu test and other cold test were included) and after all of it they decided to sent me.home to collect the 24 hour pee and preeclampsia test. My BP was a little elevated so they give me BP meds too.

A few days later they called me that they needed to see me ASAP. I know preeclampsia was here. At 29 weeks I was diagnosed with mild pre e and put on bedrest . Weeks passed by and when I was 32.5 weeks I wake up to pee in the middle of the night and I felt I was going to pass out. I checked my BP and it was low. I tried to wake up my husband but he told me to just rest. I prayed and went back to sleep.

When I woke up at 6 am to wake up my son so my husband could drop.him at school, I felt I couldn't breathe. Walking a few steps, I needed to stop take a deep breath to continue. I told my husband and we decided was time to go to Labor and Delivery ASAP. We drop my son and then went to L/D. There they told me everything was good, BP was perfect. Well the doctor covering from the clinic was going to discharged me but the L/D nurse in charge of me told her "you can't- her listen to her heart first." After that they explain my heart had irregular beats and they needed to do a EKG. After the EKG everything was fast- they rushed me to the cardiac stand down/intermediate area of the hospital which I didn't knew til I texted my husband to tell him. He was in less of 15 mins by my side. After that I was sitting down in my bed talking to my husband when the nurse in charge of the floor came and told my husband "If she passes out you are going to get me don't push the button." Then 8 nurses where in my room putting to IV on me to stabilize me. They were putting me on a medicine to prevent cardiac arrest. After I was stabilized the nurse told me the scary part is I was asymptomatic. I was having an afib that ended in a minor heart attack. I didn't feel anything, just that I wanted to sleep.

I was in the hospital for few days and when I was 33.2 days we noticed 2 things - one, that every time my BP went up my baby's heartbeat would go down and two, that day my BP went up and didn't came back down. We decided my princess needed to be out of my belly. While in the operating room I had my first big panic attack. My girl was in the NICU for 30 days. After having her I have was diagnosed with PTSD and generalized anxiety. Don't get me wrong I am grateful we survived this horrible condition. But it's been years and it's been a journey. I have never thought my most desired pregnancy would have cut short and ended the way it did. But God knows how blessed I am. And I will do it again if at the end I have my beautiful baby girl.