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Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Thu May 21, 2009 04:18 am
by jenanderson
He is a cutie!
I know it's hard when you realize you aren't the mother you always thought you would be. That does NOT make you a bad mother, just different than what you thought. I hope you find some peace as the newborn phase passes, it's the hardest for sure. However it seems then you get a sassy toddler!
Have you talked with your Dr about how your feeling? I would hate for you to be unhappy just because of hormones when there are a lot of things that you can do to help feel better. Just a thought!
Good luck, and remember...this too shall pass.

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 06:35 pm
by debbie78
I am so happy to read an update from you, Karoliina! <3

Let me agree with the others, Dani is *beautiful* and I, too, love the photo of him and Stella. How sweet.

And again, like the others have said, don't beat yourself up, I am sure you are a wonderful mother-- where you are is a very hard stage to be in, and you went through so much to get there. Take it easy on yourself.

I've been thinking of you and I do hope you continue to come back and update us. <3

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 05:28 pm
by dolphinjen
Wow...seriously Karoliina, what a beatiful, beautiful baby. I love the pic with him and his sister. And the one where he's eating and looking at the camera...just melted my heart.

Your hormones are going like crazy right now. I know it's a very hard time, and you're suffering some PTSD I'm sure. Just take care of yourself.

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 04:11 pm
by susheli
Dear Karoliina,
It's SO nice to read your here again and to get to see those gorgeous pics of little Dani! I love the one of him and Stella together especially. :)
I understand that it's hard to read/think about PE now,especially during a busy and even overwhelming time of adjusting to two children - at least that's what I'm expecting us to go through this summer!
I'm so sorry you sound sad and hard on yourself too - don't be hard on yourself... all of us are not perfect as mothers, and I often feel bad for not being in reality what I wish I could be for Aurelia: always there, always patient, always giving. But then I remind myself that our children are human and imperfect as we are, and if we show them that we are perfect (if that was possible!) then that's what they'll expect of themselves too - and always fail.
I'm going to email you too... I miss you, sweetie!! And promise I won't write about PE - there's so much to talk about life and mothering....
(((((((((((((((((((((big hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))
xoxox Sush

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 12:32 am
by karoliina
Oh wow, it's been a while again. *blush*

I've been so busy - and when not busy, just holding a baby (she's just like Stella - won't lie still on his own, but wants to be held all the time *sigh*) or soothing a toddler - that I haven't had time for any normal correspondance or the forums. But here - I think another factor is that for some reason I was so traumatised with this PE pregnancy that I just don't want to even think about the whole thing anymore at all.

I know I'm being too dramatic, as both my pregnancies have been fairly easy and given me two relatively healthy babies. And still. :(

I've finally stopped taking the BP meds, and I'm taking my BP once a day now, if I remember. It's not yet how it used to be, but finally below 140/90. My daily migraines stopped already weeks ago, but up until then they were hellish.

Dani is okay, he's growing well now, but he has reflux and is acutely constipated (we get to change poopy pants only every 3 or 4 days, and it's clearly painful), so he's often in pain and crying pretty much. On the other hand, like I mentioned already, his temperament seems to be similar to Stella's, and they're both easily annoyed and will then cry.

But he's a sweetheart, of course, and already smiles a lot and likes to have conversations. :)

Stella has really stareted to act up, but I know it'll pass. My studies for this spring are now over, but I still have some work assignments I try to do on top of taking care of the children and home.

We're good, but I have to say this is not the best time of my life (actually the last 8 months have been pretty rough for different reasons), I have realised I'm not a very good mother even though I always thought I'd be/I am (I'm too short-tempered and not enough interested in just being around babies and toddlers) - and most importantly I've become one of those people I always found so irritating - that will always complain and be negative. LOL!

I guess it's easy to think you're very sublime before you have children... More than one. But I know this is a short period after all, and it'll get easier, or at least different.

I can't wait to read how everybody else is doing! Even though I can't bring myself to read about PE anymore, I feel I made friends here, and have really missed everyone!

Oh yeah, pics of Dani... I've taken most with my mobile, and have lost the plug to upload them to my laptop, but...

Here is 2-day-old Dani with his Dad: ... va_033.jpg

Here he's with Stella: ... uva118.jpg

And this is the most recent I have: ... va_057.jpg

Best wishes to everybody,


Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Sat Apr 25, 2009 07:59 pm
by carjashaner
Congratulations on little Dani. Take care of yourself and give us an update when you can.

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Sat Apr 25, 2009 08:50 am
by blythe
Congratulations, Karoliina and welcome Dani! I'm amazed you made it so long with a calcifying placenta - wow and scary! I can definitely appreciate the urge to be in denial about any possible pp PE! Just remember that treating pp PE is relatively easy and much less stressful than what you've been through so far!! Hang in there and at least give your doc a call about those diastolics - maybe an increase in meds (or even a different med) is all that you'd need.

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Sat Apr 25, 2009 07:01 am
by caryn
Welcome Earthside, Dani!

Labor can likely put more of the chemical proteins into your system -- at least one is upregulated by hypoxia, and the placenta is short of oxygen during labor, so they think a whole bunch of sFlt-1 can get into your system during labor -- and raise your pressures. I know you're keeping an eye on your other symptoms too. Don't hesitate to call the docs and let them know that those are your pressures on meds -- they might want you to come in and run bloodwork.

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Sat Apr 25, 2009 01:03 am
by athamilton
Congratulations, Karoliina! :-)

Re : Karoliina and Dani

Posted: Fri Apr 24, 2009 01:54 pm
by hannahsmom