I'm with Kerisue. I don't fear for myself during a subsequent pregnancy. My doctors and husband were adamant that I deliver Gracie, despite me begging them to let me wait and I know that the same will happen next time. I do feel the anger, resentment, bitterness, and guilt though. I think another re...

Hi Mouschin. I'm so sorry about your loss of Ava. I am new here as well, but have found the site to be a great resource. I wish you and your husband peace in this awful journey. It is a terrible place to be, I know from experience but you are definitely in the right place for support. I had atypical...

All of you have been so supportive. Thank you all for your kind words and advice. I feel like I know everyone here personally. I found the site after I got home from the hospital and have been lurking and reading everyone's posts and blogs since then. I recognize your avatars and know your signature...

Hello everyone, Thank you so much for the kind words. It's funny, everyone has been telling me that no one blames me and that it wasn't my fault. It seems that I have been the hardest on myself. I can't help it, I guess. I want someone to blame, no I NEED someone to blame and after replaying everyth...

Hello everyone. Unfortunately I am new here and sad to make my first post in the grief and loss forum. This is my long story. I have chronic hypertension and PCOS. My dh and I conceived our daughter after my second round of Clomid, with timed intercourse. Going into the pregnancy I thought being ove...