<t>it has been a while since I have been here = but Monday will be 5 years since I lost William and today it is so raw. I hate the 4th of July now and take that week off every year now. Today was my last day of work before vacation and I cried all the way to work - was a mess when I got there, my bo...

<t>No one can understand and no one can tell us how we should be dealing with things. I know I went into absolute RAGES about tiny things - I sometimes wonder how my dh didn't commit me! Our pain does get better with time and we still have days that still rip us apart. For me life is so called "norm...

<t>we had gone to a new dr and had so much hope - but 4 years ago tonight is when I started losing my William. The 4th of July holiday is so hard for me - I can't enjoy fireworks, I just cry. This is the first time my husband has the day off for Williams bday on the 7th. We are getting away and goin...

<t>Thanks! I am really focusing on me this year - I ahve lost 45.8 pounds since Jan 13th and am getting a lot of walking in. DH and I now have a dog and cat (lucy and desi) that give us tons of love _ the possibility of trying again is still out there though age keeps creeping up on us! i"ll try not...

<t>since I have visited these boards - sometimes it is just too hard. Last Friday night dh and I were walking the dog in the park and there were several little boys about 3 or 4 years of age playing and it hurt so bad - cause my little boy wasn't there. I can't believe that in just over a month it w...

I can't believe its been 3 years already - mommy and daddy miss you and love you very much!!!!

Lucy says "Woof"

<t>In four weeks it will be 3 years since I lost William and last night I cried myself to sleep. I still say good night to him every night and tell him that mom and dad love him. I know he was my only chance to have a baby and that tears me up. I think of him multiple times a day -he is always with ...

<t>The last 2 years my husband and I have not participated in Mothers Day - we just made it a day for ourselves. I still can't bring myself to go out to brunch as we used to - so this year we are having a dinner at our house. I figured I could do that much. Now my inlaws have decided to also make it...

<t>this poem was in a recent flyer from the support group we went to - it really says a lot of what I have felt about people avoiding the subject of the loss of my son. We had a bday party for my hubby a couple of weeks ago and I had posted it on my fridge. Then last weekend one of my friends starte...

my husband would come home to diapers etc that were stomped on and left on the ground in the driveway cause I was so mad! We live on a busy corner and I bet people at the stoplight thought I was nuts!